After the 2nd vaccine, I experienced a lot of joint pain and muscle spasms. Was it a response to the vaccine or perhaps a reaction to all the stress and body flashbacks from polio and trauma I endured in childhood? Regardless of the cause, chiropractic care and a lot of meditation helped to ease the pain.
This past week, with plans for Tom to return to the office {hopefully in a hybrid model}, Ruth Anne getting ready to work part time and be on campus in late August, and the 50th anniversary of when my father ended his life after brutalizing us in the summer of 1971, my emotions expressed themselves through my body. I felt overwhelmed by the flood of emotions that I could not find words for which is quite unusual for me.
I listened as my body spoke expressing the trauma past and present in a myriad of ways. In my meditations, I focused on calm, peace, ease and freedom.
This morning I said to my body, "Okay. I hear you. Enough!" Rather than focus on the physicality of what was happening in my body, I thought, "What do you want to create? You've got to focus your thoughts on what is going to shift your body chemistry rather than maintain the stress."
During my meditation I took deep breaths and I heard Spirit speak the words, 'You deserve to feel and be well. You deserve to be free from experiencing the trauma in your body. Feel Source's Love in every cell.' I knew it was incumbent upon me to feel and find my freedom and be bold in claiming my health and well-being
I remembered the above photo and quote and the following poem flowed through me after we finished our meditation:
Be Bold
Dare to believe
you are worthy of a wonderful life
imagination opens door to infinite possibilities
hope and healing a breath away.
Emboldened by Source’s Love
Sorcerer co-creating
conjuring ease
even in midst of strife
peace treaty
bold to be free
freedom from fear.
Unfreezing
blazing a new trail
pathways of light
dispersing clouds of darkness
despairing depressing thoughts
whisked away
negatives developed
reveal Truth.
Be bold
daring to be joyful
smiling from depths of soul
believe in birthright
let freedom ring!
I felt my heart open and only whispers from the symptoms that were plaguing me. I felt more steady and calm and know that I need to draw from this state of being as we move forward emerging from the pandemic.
It takes courage and being bold to face whatever is keeping us from experiencing our natural state of joy, happiness and well-being. But when we do we experience life as Source intended us to.
Let freedom ring as we enjoy this Fourth of July free from the constraints of the pandemic.
From my heart to yours
In health and wellness
Mary
Be sure to listen to my conversation with Greg Chastain and Ed Siegel on their Voices of Hope podcast, The Cardinal Cafe. From Greg Chastain: The latest episode of The Cardinal Cafe is up! On this episode we meet Mary McManus. Mary is a motivational speaker, author, poet, 2009 Boston Marathon Finisher, polio and trauma survivor. She has a remarkable story of resilence, healing, Hope and possibilities. Once you hear her tell her story you will want to rush out to purchase her newest book of poems “Hope is a Garden” which she wrote during the recent pandemic. So please join us for this incredible story.
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