Showing posts with label retirement. Show all posts
Showing posts with label retirement. Show all posts

Sunday, September 12, 2021

It's Gonna Be Alright....

 

As my head swirled with negative thoughts of "What if's" I told myself to stop and shift the "What if's" to positive outcomes. On August 5, Tom was given a Performance Improvement Plan at work. He had been working day and night after having had an adverse reaction to the COVID vaccine. He planned to get the vaccine on his vacation but they told him he had to postpone his vacation. He couldn't postpone his 2nd shot and worked when he should have taken time to rest. He was also called back early from his vacation to work the evening before he was to return to work. 

He made errors that were uncharacteristic for him and exaggerated because of the extraordinary stress everyone experienced. Management didn't check in with him to see what was going on. Instead they "wrote him up" and gave him a warning that if he did not follow the PIP and immediately improve, he would be fired!

Fortunately his vacation started the next week.  As Divine Timing would have it, our son Autumn and his partner Michelle were coming to town on August 11th to celebrate the twins' birthday. Team McManus had a meeting and unanimously decided it was time for Tom to retire.We had savings and were totally confident that he could get a low key job somewhere to supplement retirement and social security. The "Big Quit" can be as infectious as COVID and we decided that life is too short to suffer in a work environment. Autumn and Tom got very excited about a dream they've had for several years to have their own technology consulting company.

Last week, there was a meeting scheduled with a top manager on his calendar. "What if they are going to ask you to stay?" {Note how this was quite a shift from what if they tell you to leave early without pay?} "I'm not going to do it," Tom said. We ignored the 'dreadlines' about an uncertain economy trusting that the technology sector is in dire need of talent.

I thought of the Helen Keller quote about security, "Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure."

The meeting was rescheduled and then canceled. He received a call at 8:30am on Friday morning informing him that his access had been terminated.  We were very confused and tried to discern what he was being told. Because he had a high security clearance, they could not let him finish out his last week. The manager reassured us that as far as HR was concerned, nothing about his September 17th end date had changed.

My heart raced for a bit until we were able to process that this was standard operating procedure and had been done with another employee when he left several months ago. He would get his pay for the week but did not have to work! Wow!  It felt like the total grace for all the extra hours he worked and stress he endured. It was a bit unsettling that he no longer had access to his email but texts from his co-workers let him know what they had been told by management; that Tom was leaving on good terms and they had to do this for the sake of computer security.

I am in awe of how we mobilized since we made the decision that it was time for Tom to retire from his current position and the magic of the Universe creating miracles at every turn.  

Health insurance, dental insurance and a new laptop came together with ease. Once he posted his resume, his phone rang off the hook. We prepared both a tech and a non-tech resume. We thought he would do contract work if he stayed in technology or get a job where he could use his incredible interpersonal, customer service and administrative skills.

Plot twist! He has one job offer and is close to getting another offer. He planned on taking the first offer when he had a 2nd interview for a job at another company. He wasn't going to take the interview but it was with a former co-worker from years ago and he was planning to just catch up. The Universe is full of surprises. It was as though no time had passed and the person with whom he interviewed who would be his co-worker said that he would LOVE to work with Tom again. They are expediting the interview process and Tom will have his choice of where he wants to work. Even though he is almost 70 years old, he loves technology, innovation and being part of a collaborative team. Unfortunately, he got burned out and temporarily lost his passion.

What we thought was the worst thing that could have happened to an almost 70 year old man transformed into the best thing that could have happened for spiritual growth for all of us as well as feeling the power of being able to stand up for what is right and true.

We knew it was time for Tom to leave his old job given the physical symptoms he was experiencing from the stress and the reaction to the vaccine but we thought he could just 'hang in there' for several more months while retirement continued to build and COVID subsided. We couldn't have imagined that he would secure another job with benefits for however long he wants to work and to be able to work remote even after the pandemic is under better control.

His health issues have all resolved and the severe back pain he experienced has healed. He feels more vibrant and better than he has in a few years.

We rode a lot of wild waves of emotions these past several weeks intensified by the continued rise in COVID cases. There is continued divisiveness around vaccines and mask mandates. I harness the power of my faith holding a vision of health, healing and well-being for my family, my community, my country and the global community that it's gonna be alright!

 

From my heart to yours
In health and wellness,
Mary

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Tuesday, September 7, 2021

Letting Go of Fear and Worry!

 

I've been riding the waves that go with a big life change of Tom's retirement. While I limit my exposure to news, the "dreadlines" seemed to have had a bigger impact on me in recent days. I found myself getting stuck in a cycle of worry and fear. I know that worrying is praying for something we do not want to have happen and that it is vital to look within to create my outer world. I believe we are all feeling a little weary of the ongoing pandemic, extreme weather and fires and a "shaky" economic outlook.

After being in my head for a bit during our 5K run, I shared with Tom and Ruth Anne what was weighing me down. With the vast ocean on my right and loving daughter and husband by my side, I was able to purge myself of the fear and worry. I ended up doing major negative splits on our 5K dripping with sweat and a little dizzy from my effort. Cold water, a banana and a picnic lunch was the quick remedy to help me recover.





 

My favorite quote from Ruth Anne was, "Mom...how can you let these dreary thoughts be on such a perfect day?"








She was right! 







 

 We played in the water and "practiced" our synchronized swimming feeling the joy of just being in the moment.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As we sat in the sun drying off from our swim, this poem flowed through me:

Baptism

Feet glide along silky silt ocean’s floor
wading into gentle waves
expanding
fathom infinite gratitude and love
warm sun on skin
seagulls song entreating.

Dive into faith
releasing fears
fully present
prepared to receive gift of new life
past washed away in tide
only good tidings.

Source’s presence palpable
as joy rises from depths of soul
return to innocence
carefree
just Be
believe!

Seize the moment
seas current comforts
get carried away
on this end of summer day
delicious delight
as heart takes flight. 

A run, a swim, lots of sun and connecting to Source were the perfect combination to help me release fear and worry and embrace infinite possibilities for a new chapter in our life.

From my heart to yours
In health and wellness,
Mary

My books to uplift and inspire you are available on Amazon.

Visit my website to learn more about my journey of transformation in the wake of paralytic polio and trauma to the finish line of the 2009 Boston Marathon and beyond.

Be sure to visit my News and Events tab on my website to hear interviews that will open your heart and mind to a powerful message of healing, hope and possibilities.

Monday, August 16, 2021

Navigation

 

 

Several years ago I was blessed to hear Tara Brach speak at the Cambrige Insight Meditation Center. She is a psychologist and meditation teacher who did a dharma talk followed by a guided meditation. In the Dharma Talk she shared how one of her students was annoyed because another student was breathing loudly during a meditation. The student thought to themselves that if only the student would stop breathing so loudly, they would be able to meditate better and feel more peace. The other student left the room and do you know what happened? The student realized it didn't make a difference; that the frustration and inability to settle down to experience peace and calm during the meditation was inside of them.

How often do we find ourselves saying these days, "if only." If only my co-worker would leave me alone. If only the pandemic were over. If only it were not raining. You get the idea. The list goes on and on. 

Since the diagnosis of Post-Polio Syndrome fourteen years ago and throughout this pandemic, I have become acutely aware that it is up to me to navigate circumstances. I need to take time in the morning for meditation, to make time for meditation in the afternoon and to put on a meditation before sleep. I monitor my state of being throughout the day. Am I in a state of fear or am I in a state of love, connected to Source creating my life rather than reacting to external circumstances. I'll admit, some days it is more challenging to shift from fear to love, but I know for my physical, emotional and spiritual well-being it is imperative that I make that effort to return to a state of love, faith, trust and envisioning what I want to have happen versus dwell in the past or being fearful of the future.

Tom's work has been very challenging with his work place being short staffed while trying to implement innovative technology. We have talked about retirement and set the date for May 25, 2022. My early retirement was on May 25, 2007 and my daughter thought it would make for great symmetry to have him retire on the same day. At the twins birthday party last week, we talked about moving the date way up since Tom was beginning to exhibit some physical symptoms associated with stress. We chose September 20th as the date he will begin the next chapter of his life.

Within a week, while Tom was on vacation, we met so many earth angels and were guided by Spirit to get everything in place to give notice when he returned to work today. I have complete trust and faith in experiencing the flow of abundance even though he will no longer work full time in technology. The synchronicity and serendipity that is already showing itself to us is awe inspiring.

Just as the ocean's waves are forever in a state of ebb and flow, so too are our lives. Of course we all love it when seas are calm and we see for miles to the horizon. But there are times when there may be storms that we have to navigate or fog where we just have to trust even though we can't see very far in front of us. That's the time when faith and trust come rushing in with the tide and we breathe living only in the eternal present moment.

Navigation

When waves of fear
wash away faith and joy
breathe
feel Divine’s presence
coursing through every cell.

When fear tries to pierce heart
allow Divine's Love to be armor
shake off quivering and quaking
let no one put asunder your joy.

Take pause
power pose
claiming birthright
born to be free.

Trip lightly through adversity
eyes on horizon
steady sure footsteps
surging strength from depth of soul.

Lost and confused?

Behold
invisible hand guides safely through storm
follow its lead
to rainbow’s end
pot of gold
overflows with well-being. 

From my heart to yours
In health and wellness,
Mary

Visit my website to learn more about my journey of transformation in the wake of paralytic polio and trauma to the finish line of the 2009 Boston Marathon and beyond.

Be sure to listen to my recent conversation with Liz Brunner, award winning journalist, now CEO of Brunner Communications on her podcast Live Your Best Life. I share how I live my best life despite the challenges that I faced at an early age.

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Wednesday, May 19, 2021

A Date With Destiny

 


“Follow your bliss. The heroic life is living the individual adventure. There is no security in following the call to adventure. Nothing is exciting if you know what the outcome is going to be.”
~ Joseph Campbell

Because of the intense nature of working at the VA, staff at the medical clinic would begin to look at life after the VA as we neared the time of retirement.

I was just 3 years 'shy' of when I was eligible to retire based on time in service and my age when I started thinking about what I'd do next. I was going to work at Bloomingdale's or some other high end retail store which would be quite a contrast from the gray interior with fluorescent lights of the VA Outpatient Clinic. I fancied myself as getting dressed up and enjoying helping shoppers choose accessories to complement their outfits. It was the exact opposite of my career as a social worker where we provided emotional and financial support to those who served. We addressed the biopsychosocial needs of veterans and their families whose suffering was palpable.  I fancied a part-time job with ease and meeting friends for lunch at lovely restaurants.

File those plans under what was I thinking???

In December of 2006 as I was planning the rest of my life, my mind, body and soul were crying out for healing. The Universe clearly had other plans. I was diagnosed with Post-Polio Syndrome, a progressive neuromuscular disease. I was told to prepare to spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair and quit my job if there was any hope of stabilizing the debilitating symptoms where they were. The limp from polio returned, I had difficulty swallowing, breathing, walking and felt depressed and anxious. The initial rehab specialists were tremendously helpful in providing relief with a cane, leg brace, wrist splints, a wheelchair, speech and swallow interventions and energy conservation techniques.

I was blessed to meet a physical therapist, Allison Lamarre-Poole at Spaulding Rehab in Downtown Boston which was near the VA. Dr. ElAbd, a pain management specialist referred me to her after my 2nd cervical spine injection. She did not subscribe to the "use it and you'll lose it" theory for polio survivors and held enough faith for both of us that I was not destined to spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair.

In February of 2007, after a month of sessions with Allison, I got still and asked for Divine Guidance about my future. On a dark, cold February evening, the poem, "Running the Race" poured out of me as if a spigot was turned on in my soul. When Tom came home from an outing with our 20 year old twins, I told him there is life after the VA! I did not know the how's or any of the details but knew poetry and writing were going to be involved.

I smile now as I came up with the idea of "New World Greeting Cards" original poetry for every occasion and started writing a poetry book. I continued to provide the best care I could to my veterans and their families given my own physical limitations while planning my exit from the VA. I took time for self care and went for 3X/week physical therapy sessions with my earth angel Allison.

Allison set me on my healing path mind, body and soul and soon I realized I had a Date with Destiny.

From Feel the Heal: An Anthology of Poems to Heal Your Life:

A Date With Destiny

 

Don’t wait til you die to let your soul fly free

please listen and hear what happened to me.

My body was broken every imaginable place

yet to the world always a smile on my face.

My soul trapped inside feeling it was broken too

God brought me out of darkness my light I shine on you.

She showed me the way through people I met

it took awhile a message hard to get.

 

The kingdom of heaven is right inside me

take the leap of faith fulfill destiny.

While I did my soul work and let my soul fly free

my body transformed changes did I see.

My head now aligned the tremor no more

my body aligned such strength in my core.

When once head detached from my heart and my soul

they all work together amazingly whole.

The rules that I live by are my rules alone

I found strength and courage the past now has flown.

 

I gave 6 weeks notice and on May 25th, 2007, left behind my award winning career as a VA social worker to heal my life. At the time I didn't understand the totality of what that meant or how it would manifest in my life. 

 

I went on to run the 2009 Boston Marathon, publish my book of poems and a Trilogy of Transformation.

 

This past year we were all challenged to shift from the plans we made to embrace a date with destiny. Having opportunities to be an in person motivational speaker were put on hold but I participated in Zoom events and had my story shared on different outlets. 

 

I wrote my book, "Hope is a Garden: Poems and Essays From the 2020 Pandemic" and have been deeply moved by the reception it has received. 

 

There often comes a time in life when we have to let go of the life we have planned so as to accept the one that is waiting for us.

 

Be sure to tune into Dreamvisions 7 Radio to hear my conversation with Bernie Siegel, MD on his show Mind Health Matters, tomorrow and Friday, and May 27th and 28th at 12:00am and 12:00pm ET. We talk about my newest book, my journey as a survivor of paralytic polio and trauma, healing, hope and possibilities and how my relationship with Bernie helped me on my journey of transformation since the 1980's.

From my heart to yours
In health and wellness
Mary

For more information about my journey from childhood polio and trauma to the finish line of the 2009 Boston Marathon and beyond, visit my website.

 

"Hope is a Garden:Poems and Essays From the 2020 Pandemic" along with all of my books to inspire and uplift you is available on Amazon.

 

 




 


 



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